Mom had to be run to the ER earlier this evening. She was visiting my brother and fell down his front steps- she broke her right hand, bruised her head all to hell, scraped up both hands, and has horrible knots and scrapes on both knees. ER doc gave her Percocet, so she's stoned and sleeping now, but god, she is going to be in so much pain tomorrow.

She's so close to retirement, Thanksgiving is around the corner, the house needs to be cleaned, I've got a migraine, and I can't leave her alone but I'm supposed to drive up to Glasgow to pick up my aunt and.... augh. I'm so worried. And so tired. She's going to be in bad shape tomorrow and I hate seeing her in pain. I just... I dunno. I had a point in here somewhere and I've forgotten it.

The night before last I began feeling my heart skipping beats and fluttering oddly. I thought it was just my arrhythmia acting up, and I fell asleep. Woke up the next morning still feeling nervous and fluttery and with muscle twitches in my neck and head. My BP was fine, my blood sugar was fine... I figured it was a panic attack and took and extra Xanax. It helped a little.

But when the feelings didn't go away, I went to the ER. And passed out five feet from the fucking ER doors.

So they pack me in and get me on heart monitors and draw blood and X-ray my right elbow, as it took the brunt of the impact and swelled up and HURT LIKE FUCK... and everything came back negative. My bloodwork looked perfect (heart enzymes, etc. were absolutely perfect, according to the doctor), the heart monitor showed no arrythmia at all even though I swore I could feel it....

Basically, I was having the panic attack from hell. Oh, and I busted my elbow pretty badly from passing out on the concrete and they couldn't rule out a hairline fracture.

In other words, I'm having a miniature nervous breakdown from all the fucking stress.

Fuck me running.

KEVIN SKINNER

WON

AMERICA'S GOT TALENT!

FUCK YES

EPIC WIN

I AM HAPPY

:D

OK, home from Louisville and two job interviews that went... exceptionally well, actually. :D Except that I'm now exhausted from the drive.

I'd do the character meme going around, but... I only have the two. xD; So it'd be kinda pointless. Unless people want to just ask random RP-related questions or something. idk.

Can you tell I'm half-asleep? 8D; BEDTIEMZ NAO, NIGHT NIGHT. <3

IN LOUISVILLE NOW. Will be in Cincinnati tomorrow visiting driley1 :D

But for now, meme~

The "You Should Write..." Meme!
my thread here




... oh god my foot hurts wryyyyy

RPSHIPSMEME

Hee, meme.

Interview over. Not my best-- some good points, some bad. I think it's awkward to be interviewed by someone who knew you when you were a geeky, awkward teenager. Still... I think I managed to pitch my skills well if nothing else.

Ugh, yucky tummy and headache now. Naptiemz.

~ Red Bull gives you wings. And then you CRASH HEADFIRST INTO A BRICK WALL. At least it kept me awake long enough for the 225-mile drive home yesterday, since I didn't sleep worth a damn the night before.

~ It's really depressing to see the monuments of your youth. Outside of Cave City, which is in the whole Mammoth Cave area, there's a place where two highways intersect that used to be crowded with all kinds of little gift shops and sundry. Lots of kitsch, lots of overpriced junk or low-priced cute things, geodes, etc. Now it's got a place that sells concrete statues for your lawn, a tiny furniture store, and a 'flea market' that's just a bunch of outside stalls filled with crap. And two trailers at the end as their own little shop. Run by Koreans. Kind of fun-- lots and LOTS of bootleg items, cheap stuff, knockoff Prada purses, etc. I bought a few mechanical pencils and lead cases (Monokuro Buu, with the Shounen Jump logo and 'One Piece' in katakana below the piggies, wtf), a few silly things, and a giant squishy boob. A giant, squishy, water-filled tit.

I am so easily amused.

~ God, my family needs to stop smoking. Stayed with an aunt, who smokes like a damned chimney, so now all my clothes smell like smoke and I have a pounding migraine.

~ All this for a fifteen-minute job interview.

I had damn well better get a job. I'm tired of driving out all over the state for interviews.

<-- CLICKY MY EGGS. >(

Created by Train Horns

You don't want to pass this. Really. That was painful.

And I hope I don't get called for another job interview in Louisville anytime soon. Driving up there and back once a week is all I care to do. It's over 500 miles round-trip. x_x

Ok, so, everyone knows Kentucky was hit by a huge-ass icestorm Monday night/early Tuesday morning that bashed the shit out of the state. Right? Right.

I'M IN THE WORST-HIT AREA OF THE ENTIRE DAMN STATE. I HAVE NO POWER. NO WATER. NO HEAT. NO FOOD, NO GAS, NOTHING. The ice took down virtually every fucking tree in the city (the trees in my back yard are now broken and drooping to the ground-- can't even see the backyard for the branches frozen to the ground) and most of the power lines. We tried toughing it out for a night in the house with no heat, but once it got down to 40 degrees, we had to go to the Red Cross shelter.

... the shelter is SCARY. Water shortages, food shortages (people fight and cheat to get the best stuff, so if you're older or can't get there ASAP you end up with some pretty nasty stuff), an army cot with a thin blanket, two bathrooms for.... well, there were about 500 people there when we were there. With Mom on oxygen, we stayed there for the electricity to run her concentrator, but there were so many out-of-control kids and sick people and power outages (overloading the generators) that we left.

So how am I online now?

I'm in Memphis, TN. In a hotel, where I have bathed for the first time in four days and had my first real meal with food that was HOT and not a stringy gristly ham-and-cheese sammich. Real food. Toilets I can flush. Hot water. A bed. I'm enjoying it as much as I can for now, since we'll most likely be going back Sunday morning. We just can't afford to stay in a hotel (or motel) 100+ miles away the whole time.

... we won't have power again until mid-February at the earliest.

This is going to suck so hard.

My first post of 2009 is THIS:



A Felixdoll Brownie Adela Fullset. They're just like Pukis. This one retails at 25000yen on their website... and I'm getting it for 5000yen. Off Y!J. :3 Byebye Christmas money, hello adorable.

In other news, still unemployed. Ready to sub, applying for jobs left and right, getting ready to sell some doujinshi/doll clothes/anime cels/etc. for the spare cash. If anyone's interested in SD boy/MSD boy&girl/Yo&puki clothes, shoes, etc. lemme know. Also in doujinshi (rare hentai anthologies, tons of Trigun and FFVII yaoi).

Vista isn't as bad as everyone says it is. I loves my Vista laptop, I do.

If nothing else, I'm getting more active. Maybe I'm slowly crawling out of this rut I've been in. :D

VOTE YOU ASSHOLES

...

That is all.

Ike sort of hit us with a windstorm Saturday morning. Very little rain per se, but tropical storm force winds ripped up trees, area-wide power outages, knocked over electric poles, tore up roofs, etc., etc. Massive crop losses too, as it's the season for smoking tobacco (as in, hanging the fresh-cut leaves up in a barn above smoldering ashes) and the winds knocked the barns over and rekindled the fires. (Not a big loss to me, I hate the stuff- but it's another big blow to the local economy.) Several counties were declared disaster areas, there's STILL areas in the city and county without power, and it's just been fucked up all around.

... I'd say something about 'but this was a good learning experience' or some such shit, but I'd be lying. I have blisters and splinters and spider bites from gathering all the damn broken tree limbs out of the yard. xD Let's just hope it doesn't happen again. While we didn't lose power, most everyone else did, and I really don't want the house to turn into the family bath house again. (Did I mention we were the only ones in the family with hot water all this time?)

Back from Louisville. More later, but to sum it up, new DS, too many doll clothes, laughing until I was crying (seriously, don't make me laugh like that when I'm DRIVING), family insanity, food, lack of sleep. And lots of driving. And finding porn at Goodwill, wtf.

For now, though, time to catch up on the f-list. 8D (And what's this meme with names and numbers and you can't have the questions unless you do the meme? I want the questions, dammit >/ )

... If we have another tornado warning, I'm just going to camp out in the closet for the night.

Back, tired, sleep now. Info later.


... the con was AWESOME.

brb, going to toronto~



(Love you guys, heading off way early in the morning. I'll see you all when I get back!)

Poor Little Bit has been digging and scratching at his ears so much the fur's coming off the back of one of them, and since the antibiotics we got from the vet haven't been helping, we carted him back up there. Actually saw the vet, too, and not just his assistant. One ear swab later and I'm headed back home with ear drops and doggie Benadryl. Fungal infection in his ears. He's had it since we got him, but the first vet visit had them telling us it was just allergies, and the second... well. :P Third time's the charm, I guess. We'll see how it goes. (He HATES the ear drops. Not that I blame him, but having to practically sit on him to medicate him is a pain.)

Oh, he's also up to 3.5 pounds. xD He's a BIG dog, isn't he?

In other news, I got a haircut. Looks about like it did when I was a junior in high school now- my hairstylist remarked that it made me look 21 again. At least my hair's not down in my shirt collar anymore. :P

It's hot and I'm on the rag. Blah. Time to crank up the AC.

This is Li'l Bit. Li'l Bit is a six-week-old Rat Terrier pup that weighs maybe two pounds. He's also not completely weaned, is terrified of the outdoors and most everything else, and thinks his piddle pad is his bed. He also thinks he's a parrot, as he spends most of his time on my shoulder.

I haven't had a puppy in 14 years.

This should be interesting.


((I know, I know, I'm worried about taking him this little, but the mother's gotten aggressive towards him and her milk's almost completely dried up. Technically, he's Mom's dog, but I'm going to be the one who'll have to take care of him. I can feel my early mornings getting even earlier....))

First paycheck today. It's so very odd to see your paycheck jump $300 in two weeks. I have my reason to stick with the new job- MONEY. Also, it doesn't suck and I don't have to deal with the public. Yay me!

Also, officially named my car the Shadowfox. (Bonus points if you know where I got the name.) Have I mentioned that I love my car? 'cause I do. 8D

... I am SO TIRED. *flops*